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20 September 2007 @ 08:29 pm
Well hello there! How are you all doing?

I know, I know, it's been AGES since I last came on here and I do apologise! I just always keep forgetting or never have the energy needed to write it! But tonight I am trying to avoid going downstairs so thought I'd just fill you guys in on all the gossip instead!

Firstly, and most excitingly, i'm moving house!! Myself and Nic have gone and found ourselves a gorgeous 2bed apartment in Portmarnock (For those of you who know Dublin - it's near Malahide. For those of you who don't - it's a little north of the city but on the train line so only 20 mins from town!) which is lovely and perfect. We're moving in at the beginning of October and it's gonna be so amazing having a place of our own. It's gonna be THE coolest apartment in the history of cool apartments!

Job is still going strong - i'm still not sure if it's going to be a permanent thing or what but I figure I might as well make the most of it while i've got it. I've gotten really friendly with a lot of the people there [being put on reception's lunch-time shift has helped wonders, despite me hating it!] and we're all off out for drinks on Friday night down to Capitol for some cocktails after work which is gonna be so much fun!

Then this weekend i'm going back to Fareham to see people and catch up which is going to be mega exciting! I can't wait to be working in £ instead of € again - seeing silver coins is going to be such a novelty ;) Then back here on Monday morning and to work :) Then that Friday myself and Laura [my friend - not housemate Laura] are going to go see Des Bishop which is going to be so much fun! We're heading straight from work to the pub, get wasted, then go see Des [he's a comedian, by the way, SO funny.] Then the next day we shall hopefully be meeting the landlord of this new apartment and getting our keys so we can move iiiiiin! Very very exciting stuff!

Eeer, yeah. That's about it, really. Just dossing around and living life over here...nothing much else to report.

10 September 2007 @ 09:00 pm
Everything happens for a reason. Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, to teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out who you are and who you want to become. You never know who these people may be, but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment they will affect your life in some profound way.
And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that in overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.
Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.
The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones.
If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart...forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious to when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.
Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for when you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.
You can make of your life anything you wish. Live it with no regrets and learn a lesson with each day you live. Most importantly, if you love someone, tell them, for you never know what tomorrow may have in store.
29 August 2007 @ 06:15 pm
Yeah so I feel kinda crappy.

I don't want to go into specifics but lets just say that things are changing and I don't like it. Not that I have any say in these changes - they'll happen whether I agree with them or not. And they're not major changes for the most part. I just think the weird mood i'm in at the moment is magnifying things and making me react worse than I should be reacting.

If I had just taken this first change with the pinch of salt I should have taken it with [as opposed to getting majorly freaked out and causing unnecessary drama, panic and confusion in my own head] then it would have blown over by now and things would be nowhere near as tense and confusing as they are now.

I no longer know where I stand. And anybody who knows me will know that I like to know the score, what the plans are and where I stand. And that frightens me. I don't know wether i'm coming or going and who I can talk to and who I can't and if I do talk to them, what I am and am not allowed or meant to say. It's messing my head up and I know it's all my fault. I've needlessly made things worse for myself [and others] and I hate that.

Why can I never just accept that some things are just not meant to be, and that there are some people you need to leave alone for a while to for things to get better. I hate feeling like this and I hate not knowing how I can NOT feel like this. I can't fix what i've done, can't take back what I said or how I reacted. I just wish I knew where to go from here to make things better. Space. But how do you give space to somebody when you're lonely and homesick and want to be around them. I guess i'm just going to have to deal with it myself and hope the situation sorts out soon.
01 August 2007 @ 09:12 pm
Nothing lasts forever, so live it up, drink it down, laugh it off, avoid the bullshit, take chances, and never have regrets. Because at one point, everything you did was exactly what you wanted.
01 June 2007 @ 08:16 pm
1. You're holding a dinner party and can invite three famous people from the past or present; who would they be?
Luther Vandross, Nickilah, Annie

2. You have the opportunity to question someone about something you've always wanted to know and receive a truthful answer; what would your question be?
Do I stand a chance?

3. If you could change one thing in your life, what would it be?
My past

4. If you could save other people's lives by completing an act that would lead to your own death, would you do it?
If the person meant a lot to me, then there's no doubt about it.

5. Would you commit murder if you knew that you could get away with it?
No, my conscience would kill me.
27 April 2007 @ 03:50 pm
1. What is your all time favorite book?
This is so hard...i'm going to have to say PS. I Love You buy Cecilia Ahern. Not because it's excellently written...just because i love it to pieces.

2. What is your all time favorite movie?
Inside I'm Dancing...I think ;)

3. What are you reading right now?
Melissa Bank - The Wonder Spot

4. What is your favorite show on tv?
Will and Grace

5. What is the last movie you saw in the theater?
Blades of Glory - loved it!!
01 January 2007 @ 04:50 pm
Friends Only
Mood: happy
Music: Snow Patrol - Headlights On Dark Roads
01 January 2007 @ 09:15 am

1. Prep - Curtis Sittenfeld
2. The Perks of Being a Wallflower - Stephen Chbosky (re-read)
3. Is Shane MacGowan Still Alive? - Tim Bradford
4. How to Walk in High Heels - Camilla Morton
5. McCarthy's Bar - Pete McCarthy
6. Rachel's Holiday - Marian Keyes


7. Watermelon - Marian Keyes
8. My Best Friend's Girl - Dorothy Koomson (re-read)
9. Sushi For Beginners - Marian Keyes
10. Can You Keep A Secret? - Sophie Kinsella
11. Under the Duvet - Marian Keyes


12. Shopaholic and Baby - Sophie Kinsella
13. Practically Perfect - Katie Fforde
14. Deception Point - Dan Brown


15. The Godmother - Amanda Brookfield
16. A Certain Age - Rebbecca Ray
17. Straight Talking - Jane Green
18. Dot.Homme - Jane Moore (re-read)
19. The Wonder Spot - Melissa Bank
20. West End Girls - Jenny Colgan
21. The Earth, My Butt and Other Big Round Things - Carolyn Mackler
22. Love, And Other Four-Letter Words - Carolyn Mackler
23. Vegan Virgin Valentine - Carolyn Mackler


24. Secret Diary of a Demented Housewife - Niamh Greene
25. The Friday Night Knitting Club - Kate Jacobs
26. Please Daddy, No - Stuart Howarth


27. The Hat Shop on the Corner - Marita Conlon-McKenna
28. Bookends - Jane Green
29. Marshmallows For Breakfast - Dorothy Koomson
30. Husbands (Is One Ever Enough?) Adele Parks


31. The Yorkshire Pudding Club - Milly Johnson
32. Old Boyfriends - Debbie Macomber
33. Just In Case - Meg Rosoff
34. Apart From The Crowd - Anna McPartlin


35. A Spot of Bother - Mark Haddon
36. Love Comes Tumbling - Denise Deegan
37. Life on the Refrigerator Door - Alice Kuipers
38. Marley & Me - John Grogan


39. Tangled Up In You - Rachel Gibson
40. Just A Little Disco On An Open-Top Bus - Candy Guard
41. The Cupid Efect - Dorothy Koomson
42. The Ex-Boyfriend's Handbook - Matt Dunn
Mood: awake
Music: Paolo Nutini - Rewind